I struggle so hard to hang on - to my faith, to my hopes, to my dreams, to my vision.
But holiness is more about 'letting go'.
Jesus said "Unless you become as a little child you will not enter the kingdom of heaven." (Matthew 8:3) Little children go about their lives totally care free - leaving all their worries in the hands of their parents.
I want to be as a little child and leave all my worries in the hands of my Father in Heaven.
Letting go is a hard lesson to learn. Just when I think I understand, I'm asked to let go of something else - and the struggle begins anew.
But I understand these lessons are necessary. I have an opportunity to learn them here - in this life. And if I don't learn them here, God will allow me to complete the lessons in Purgatory. But I would just as soon get as much as I can over with here! When I die, I want to be done with the drudgery. I want to spend as little time possible in Purgatory! I want to go straight to my Jesus!!