JJ Heller graciously shared with ChristianMusic.com about her life, her influences, her spiritual walk with the Lord, her musical process, and her songs.
Her relationship with the Lord Jesus began early and evolved as she came of age, deepening in her adult life.
JJ Heller shares, "I grew up in San Jose, California in a Christian home, and gave my life (the best way I knew how) to Christ at the age of 5. I feel like I’ve had a really firm foundation as far as Biblical knowledge, but I don’t think I truly claimed Christianity for myself until college. I started to question things, and search out the answers for myself, and because of that, developed a stronger sense of what I believe. Since then I’ve been trying to figure out how to truly live out a relationship with God instead of just trying to follow a list of rules."
Any personal testimony you would like to share to encourage others, what the Lord has done for you?
JJ Heller - "I’m simply amazed that God would choose someone like me to be in a relationship with Him. He knows my weaknesses better than I do, and yet He still loves me. He has kindly and gently shown me that the way to His heart is not in doing good things, but in chasing after Him with all that I have."
Mentors? Who in your life as been a source of guidance, reinforced your character, taught you your important values?
JJ Heller - "My parents have been a great example of what a godly marriage looks like, and what it means to be obedient to Christ. They have also proven over and over how much they support me and believe in the music that Dave (her husband) and I are sharing with others."
Musical Influences: Artists (secular and Christian) which influenced you growing up or now which have influenced your singing style, performance skills and / or composing.....
JJ Heller - "I’ve always loved music, but my family didn’t listen to a whole lot of it when I was growing up. I remember hearing Jennifer Knapp for the first time, and being blown away that Christian music could sound like that. It was just so different than what I was used to hearing. Recently my husband, Dave, and I have been really intentional about expanding our horizons as far as music goes. My absolute favorite songwriter is Patty Griffin. I also enjoy Damien Rice, David Gray, and a whole bunch of amazingly talented independent artists that we’ve met since moving to Nashville."
What was your early musical experience? First performances?
JJ Heller - "I started taking piano lessons when I was 5, and later got involved in children’s choir both at church and at school. I was given a few solos during this time, which I loved but which also made me extremely nervous!"
How did the Lord prepare you for your life of service through music?
JJ Heller - "He definitely started me out with a good dose of humility. I was in a vocal ensemble in High School, and I was rarely given solos. It wasn’t until I went on a missions trip to Africa early in college that He began to birth the dream in me to be a singer/songwriter."
How were you led by the Lord to use the artist’s musical gifts to write and sing songs?
JJ Heller - "It was a very gradual process. I started to write songs during my sophomore year of college, and eventually started to play with a band (that included my future husband, Dave) at some open-mic nights at coffee shops. From there we landed our first real gig which made me a nervous wreck during the days leading up to it. The more gigs we played, the more I fell in love with it. I realized that when I'm sharing my heart and my thoughts through songs, I'm doing exactly what God created me to do. I feel so at home doing what I love."
JJ Heller continued, "So, as Dave and I moved closer to graduation and our wedding day, we felt like God wanted us to keep playing music. We didn't know what in the world we were doing, but we decided to go for it. We've been full-time musicians since we've been married, and I wouldn't trade our experience for anything."
Any life-molding experiences that you would like to share with us, which were pleasant or were difficult, but molded your thinking, music, Christian walk, outlook on life?
JJ Heller shares, "A huge experience would have to be simply making the decision to play music full-time. After interning at the Arizona Republic newspaper in Phoenix, my husband, Dave was offered a job as a staff photographer. It was the job he'd been working toward since he was in elementary school and I didn't want him to give up his dream for mine. I told him that the decision was his, and after praying long and hard about it, he knew that God was calling us to music. He said that he felt more fulfilled playing music than taking photos. It definitely wasn't the most logical decision, but we've never regretted it."
More details about JJ Heller's MUSIC on this album....
ChristianMusic.com: How do you compose?
JJ Heller - "My normal process is to sit down with a guitar, come up with a chord progression I like, then write the lyrics and the melody at the same time. Sometimes I go into it with an idea of what I want the song to be about, and sometimes I just start mumbling gibberish until something I like comes out of my mouth. Dave helps a little bit, but I do about 90% of the writing."
ChristianMusic.com: Concerning lyrical messages: Are the songs based on what has been learned spiritually, or life experience or leadings of the Holy Spirit?
JJ Heller reflects, "Each song is inspired by something different. Sometimes I write about the things that God is working on in my heart, sometimes I just write about life in general, and sometimes I write about specific situations that are going on in the lives around me."
An example of a song based on a specific situation is “All the Beauty.”
JJ Heller shares about this song with ChristianMusic.com: "A week or so before last Christmas, my husband, Dave, and I received a phone call from our friend informing us that her 17 year-old daughter, Kati, had just been admitted into a treatment center for women with eating disorders. She said that because of her disorder, Kati had become extremely depressed and desperate, and that’s why they felt they needed to take more drastic measures to get her help."
"I was completely shocked by this news because Kati appeared to have everything together. She was smart, talented, and beautiful, and yet she believed the lie that she could never measure up. I wrote 'All the Beauty' for my friend Kati to remind her that God thinks that she is precious enough to die for."
ChristianMusic.com: Any favorite songs, and why?
JJ Heller - "My favorite song on the record is "Only Love Remains." Two days before we started recording our project, I sat down to try and write one more song, and I never expected it to be my favorite one on the record! I think I like this song so much because it’s honest and it’s straight from my heart. It speaks of brokenness and humility and the truth that we must fully surrender our lives to Christ. To surrender is to allow all of the selfish, arrogant, and lazy parts of us to be burned away so that we can be free from the things that slow us down and hold us back. This song is a prayer that the Lord will never stop working on me until only love remains."
Song Evaluations: * * * * + + rating indicates this reviewer's favorite songs. All words and music written by JJ Heller, produced by Mitch Dane. Words printed by permission. All are copyrighted.
* * * * + ONLY YOU ("ONLY YOU" Video)
Scriptural References: (Ephes. 4:20-24, John 15:16, 1 Cor. 12:4-6, Romans 12:4-6)
Lyrics:
Are you the little girl who locks herself inside her room / waiting to be rescued // Or are you the captain of war that he began to prove his merit as a man./ /
Chorus: Everyone is known for something / What's it going to be for you.//
Are you the picture of perfection / but when it comes down to it, you don't have a clue // Or are you the center of attention at all times / God help the man who takes away your chance to shine.//
Chorus: Everyone is known for something / What's it going to be for you.//
Bridge: No one else can paint your portrait with an unobstructed view / You're the one who gets to choose / How much of you, you've got to lose / How much of you / you've yet to gain // Who are you....
Chorus: Everyone is known for something / What's it going to be for you.//
Tag: No one else can paint your portrait with an unobstructed view.
* * * * + + LOVE ME ("LOVE ME" Video)
Scriptural References: (1 John 4:19, Ephesians 3:16-18)
Lyrics:
He cries in the corner / where nobody sees / He's the kid with the story / no one would believe / He prays every night / Dear God won't you please / Could you send someone here who will love me.//
Chorus 1: Who will love me for me? / Not for what I have done or what I will become / Who will love me for me / 'Cause nobody has shown me what love really means.//
Her office is shrinking a little each day /She's the woman whose husband has run away / She'll go to the gym after working today / Maybe if she was thinner then he would've stayed / And she says....
Chorus 1: Who will love me for me? / Not for what I have done or what I will become / Who will love me for me / 'Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means.//
He's waiting to die / as he sits / all alone / He's a man / in a cell / who regrets what he's done / He utters a cry from the depths of his soul / Oh Lord / forgive me / I want to go home / Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside / And it said I know you've murdered and I know you've lied / I've watched you suffer all of your life / And now that you'll listen / I'll tell you that.
Chorus 2: I will love you for you / Not for what you have done or what you will become / I will love you for you / I will give you the love, the love, that you never knew.//
* * * * + + THANK YOU
Scriptural References: (Heb.7:26-28, John 3:16, Job 38)
Lyrics:
For painted purple skies / For never telling lies / For giving all you had away / For crying when I cry./
Chorus: OH Thank you / Thank you OOH./
For changing autumn leaves / The salty ocean breeze / For coming down from heaven to save a wretch like me.//
Chorus: OH Thank you / Thank you OOH./
Bridge: I can't understand / why you left your throne / But I know / that you came / and you saved my soul./ Repeat twice
Amazing grace / How sweet the sound/ I once was lost / but now I'm found / OH Thank you.
* * * * + + ALL THE BEAUTY (Kati's Story)
Scriptural References: (1 John 4:19, John 3:16, Ephes. 1:4-7 & 3:16-19)
Lyrics:
I know she's a liar when I look into her eyes / But I believe every word she says / She's out to start a fire burning everything I have / I can't put it out 'cause it's all inside my head / And then you sing / I hear you sing.//
Chorus: You call me lovely / You call me friend / You call me out of death and let me try again / You call me beloved / You call me clean / Then you show me all the beauty that you see in me./
I still hear her whisper and sometimes I hear her shout / You're not good enough and you will never be / But if I focus on your singing / I can start to tune her out / And I will try to see the value that you place on me / And you say I'm worthy.//
Chorus: You call me lovely / You call me friend / You call me out of death and let me try again / You call me beloved / You call me clean / Then you show me all the beauty that you see in me./
* * * * + + MAKE BELIEVE
(This song is dedicated to Paula and her father, Glenn).
Scriptural References: (Proverbs 22:6 & 20:7, Psalm 127:3-5)
Lyrics:
You said you couldn't keep me when you were seventeen / Too young to be a father / You kissed my hand and took your leave / And you taught me how to make believe./
Chorus 1: Make believe I was a gift to you from heaven / Make believe that you would take me as your own / Make believe that you would set the mark of what a man should be / You taught me how to make believe.//
And now that I've grown older / I long for us to meet / I have a million questions / but most of all I want to see if all of it was make believe.//
Chorus 1: Make believe I was a gift to you from heaven / Make believe that you would take me as your own / Make believe that you would set the mark of what a man should be / You taught me how to make believe.//
Another year has come and gone / I am living with your family / And I feel right at home in the place where I always wanted to be / I'm going out this evening / I check the mirror twice / You stop me on the staircase / You kiss my hand and say that I look beautiful tonight./
Chorus 2: And I believe I was a gift to you from heaven / And I believe that you would take me as your own / I believe that you set the mark of what a man should be / Now I don't have to make believe.//
* * * * + LULLABY
Scriptural References: (Psalm 3:5)
Lyrics:
Go to sleep little one / May it be peaceful / May you dream of lovely things / And awake to find them real / Little one / Close your eyes little one / This is our lullaby / The love of God is evident in the miracle of you / Little one ...
* * * * + + WHEN I LEAVE
Scriptural References: (1 Cor. 13, John 14:2-3, 2nd Cor. 5:1-2)
Lyrics:
Am I too busy chasing a temporary fortune that my priorities get lost along the road / The seasons bring their moments / they linger for an instant / The never wait for you to pay the debts you owe.//
Chorus: When I leave I want to leave a memory filled with love / the kind you don't forget / When I go I want to be known as one who lived with no regrets.//
If life is like a flower / Am I doing all that's in my power to leave a fragrance behind / it's time to count my blessings / Forget about my savings account for a while.//
Chorus: When I leave I want to leave a memory filled with love / the kind you don't forget / When I go I want to be known as one who lived with no regrets.//
I want them to say / What a glorious day / She had so much to gain but she gave it away / And I want them to see something different in me / And that I'm going to be free./
Tag: Some glad morning when this life is over / I'll fly away / To a home on God's celestial shore / I'll fly away / When I leave I want to leave a memory.....
* * * * + + EVERYTHING IS CHANGING
Scriptural References: (Romans 8:26, Phil. 3:12-14, 1 Chronicles 16:11, 1 Cor 1:8-9)
Lyrics:
I'm trying to follow / I'm trying my best to do what you said / But what about tomorrow / Are you sure I'm not in over my head./
Chorus: Everything is changing all around me / Is this the ending of a dream / I thought I was doing what you wanted / it isn't as easy as it seemed.//
I'm loosing my vision / I'm fighting the doubting with all that I am / It's been awhile since you last gave me something to go on / Tell me it's not the end. //
Chorus: Everything is changing all around me / Is this the ending of a dream / I thought I was doing what you wanted / it isn't as easy as it seemed.//
It seemed like I did everything right / Now I see that it's all wrong / Do you want me to move on / Can you tell me where I belong???///
* * * * + + ON MY OWN
Scriptural References: (1 Samuel 16:7, Romans 5:8, Heb. 6:19-20, Ephes. 1:7, 1 John 1:9)
Lyrics:
Look away from me / 'Cause I don't want you to see / My experimenting with what I know is empty / I am in so deep / That I've almost stopped breathing / I know I'm drowning. ////
Chorus: I am on my own / I want you to call me home.//
It seems too late to apologize / What I've done is done / And yet when I look in your eyes / I am overcome.//
Chorus: I am on my own / I want you to call me home.//
Home is not as sweet as it used to be / And it's all because of me / Should I leave it be / Or can I be redeemed.//
Chorus: I am on my own / I want you to call me home.//
* * * * + GARDEN VARIETY
Scriptural References: (Gen. 3, Romans 7:14-25)
Lyrics:
Garden Variety / Generations of people seeking peace / Garden variety / Everyone's falling / With restless hearts and troubled minds / We realize this fallen world doesn't seem quite right / Somewhere near the dawn of time../
Chorus: We lost our paradise.//
Broken humanity / A shadow of what we were meant to be / Broken humanity / Everyone's falling / We hear the echo of a song we haven't heard / We hum the melody but can't recall the words / Like trying to see the stars in the twilight.//
Chorus: We lost our paradise.//
* * * * + + ONLY LOVE REMAINS
Scriptural References: (Romans 12:2, Phil. 1:6, 2:15, John 8:12 & 14:8, Is. 64:8, 1 Cor 11:32)
Lyrics:
Scenes of you come rushing through / You are breaking me down / So break me into pieces that will grow in the ground / I know that I deserve to die for the murder in my heart / So be gentle with me Jesus, as You tear me apart.//
Chorus: Please kill the liar / Kill the thief in me / You know that I am tired of their cruelty / Breathe into my spirit / Breathe into my veins / Until only love remains.//
You burn away the ropes that bind and hold me to the earth / The fire only laves behind whatever is of worth / I begin to see reality for the first time in my life / I know that I'm a shadow but I'm dancing in your light.//
Chorus 2: Teach me to be humble / Call me from the grave / Show me how to walk with you upon the waves / Breathe into my spirit / Breathe into my veins / Until only love remains.//
Reviewed by Julie Carr for ChristianMusic.com
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Sources: ChristianMusic.com interview with JJ Heller, JJ Heller web-site. * McCain & Co. materials